just me and express my self

i wrote for my friend kelley and decide post here:

this is the upteen time try to writer this email, in others email it sound like I want something from you, right owns thing I want from you is your forgivess, your understand, and most of all your pray. they things that I want in my life(not from your or your family), but I GOD dose not want to have them, GOD'S plan for me, call for me to be just me, so I cannot do alot of things that I want to do because iam just me. God's give to me is I can make pepole laugh, there are pepole that vaule laugher, they are pepole who do not vaule laugher.
In others my email atend I put down pepoles who hurt me, just someone hurt dose that them an bad person, I dose make me an better person. they I pepole who I dislike, but I do not hurt them.
I cannot change God's plan for me, but I do not know why, pepole leave out of things, because Iam just me.
I also must learn lack of time, dose not mean an lack of careing.
often I feel that I done someting or say something hurt someone, but they
will tell me, how can I ask for forgiveness, If I do not know why I should
for forgiveness. what iam try to say If have hurt you tell me.
the story that you, send to me, some else has sent it to me!
in that story, it say:
Remember the five simple rules to be happy:
1. Free your heart from hatred.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less
let me answer those
Remember the five simple rules to be happy:
1. Free your heart from hatred. I dislike GOD's plan for me, I dislike somepepole, but I do not hate anyone
2. Free your mind from worries. worries is part of me, express my self take my some of my worries, anything I have comes from GOD, it is his time, on mine.
3. Live simply. I do not have cell phone, I do not drive, I donot have cable tv(I only maybe 6 channel of tv to wish, not fox tv, no not abc tv)
4. Give more. how can I give more, when I ask what can I do for you, you say nothing, and that hurt
5. Expect less, I want from you is your forgivess, your understand, and most of all your pray. is that much? when I did your time, I cannot ask for life.
what I am try say, I cannot change God's plan for me, but I am asking too much of you, understand God's pland for me? when I hurt you, or do something that do not dislike tell me.
As know I will be at walk to emmaus sept.7-10